Monday, April 6, 2009

B.lame it on the a.lcohol?...NAW, b.lame it on lack of good sense.

I may or may not have to break this post up into two different posts....depending on the amount of stuff.

Let's first turn our attention to my 'lil sis. To say I was heartbroken and disappointed would be an understatement. My middle sister called me and asked me if I had talked to our baby sis. I said "No, did something happen?". She proceeds by saying "E is pregnant". I swear I could hear my heart beating out loud. I told her I would call her back and called my baby sis. Of course her butt didn't pick up cuz I'm sure she thought I was gonna cuss at her.

Side note:I've become like the mother in my family, since my mom passed, as far as my siblings are concerned. They have no problem sharing good news with me. But when they do something that they know I'm not gonna approve of, I have to find out about it through another sibling.

So I sent her a text telling her that I wasn't mad at her and that I just wanted to talk to her. And whadaya know, she calls me back. So we're conversing and I ask her what she plans on doing. You would have thought I had asked the dumbest question known to man. She says "I'm gonna keep it, what do mean?" Ummm lets see, you're 18, your boyfriend is 21 with 3 babies already, you have a job that barely supports you let alone you AND a baby. And she's attending community college. I, in no way advocate ab0rtions but sometimes you have to see the situation for what it is. My sister is ridiculously smart and has so much going for herself. I went on to tell her that a baby is not a toy and how did she plan on taking care of this baby. Of course she didn't have definitive answer. All she knew was that she was going to make it work and she wasn't going to drop out of school.

After that, all I could do was let her know that I was there for her and that I would try to help her in any way that I can.

In some strange way, I feel like I failed my mother. My 'lil sis is my mom's baby. I couldn't get through to my other sister and my brother, but my 'lil sis seemed to get it. She excelled in school. Although she did get into trouble here and there, she always made her education her priority. I don't know, the whole situation just frustrates me *sigh*.

OK, on to my brother. He and I have the same father. So my brother comes into my room in couple weeks ago and told me he needed to talk to me and I say OK. He then tells me, that he has a baby on the way and that I can't tell anyone. After hearing about my sister, I was sure this was a joke. So my surprise quickly turned to anger, because I'm always preaching to my brother about wearing c0ndoms. His excuse was this was some girl he's knows since elementary school and they trust each other...yada yada yada. But they're not in a relationship though. WTF?! He was saying how he was trying to convince the girl to have an ab0rtion but she was leaning towards keeping the baby. He's a senior in high school and she's a junior.

So I asked him how he planned to provide for this child. This fool said "I'm gonna get a job". Like that's just the answer to everything. Anyone who knows anything about my little brother, knows that he is the laziest mofo ever to walk this earth. Hell, he even admits that he's lazy. He quit a job at Hardees after a couple weeks because they asked him to take out the trash!! So how is someone who doesn't like to work, still throws b1tch fits when he doesn't get what he want, has no inkling of the value of money supposed to provide for a child?

Someone please enlighten me, PLEASE!

UGH!! I'm annoyed!

My prayer: Lord, please help to speak out of love! Cuz if I say what I really think...boy!


  1. wow, honey it seems like there is so much on your shoulders right now. But heed this first and foremost.. You have never failed your mother and you never will.. She is there with you in all that is going on. As for your sisters she decided she wants to keep it then be by her side for whatever she needs. Its going to be a tough road for her to handle and though you may want to tell her I told you so every now and then you may just have to swallow that and not say that..

    As for your brother... Jesus pray for him. He's young and that's just another drop in the bucket of life. I hope things work out for him. Jobs are hard to come by and him thinking that, that is the easiest thing isn't smart. you're going to have to school him. and you may have to rat him out. That's up to you! Cause him being so young is another issue!

    Girl I'll pray for you! I know how haitian parents and family members are. They are going to flip but in the end love the children. Peace and blessing!

  2. we can only enlighten ourselvees via experieence

    but i get your drift

  3. I hope everything works out! Man that must be two tough pills to swallow. Just keep praying.

  4. @Ms Liryc: I plan on being there for my sister and she's knows her dad's gonna be there too. It's just so frustrating though.

    @T: hey! :)...true words.

    @YBB: Thanks for stopping by :)...all I know how to do is pray, so that's all can most days. Cuz if I really let myself dwell on it....who knows what would happen :/

  5.'ve got your hands full. i say yes, pray to God for strength as well. children these days have it too easy. (i'm only 23 but i've been working for 10 years)

    tell both of them to get jobs NOW and SAVE SAVE SAVE!smh


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