I'm smitten :)

I recently met someone and he makes me feel so good. It feels too good to be true and I'm scared to believe.

Sucks what past heartbreaks will do to your confidence.

He makes me actually want to believe in the possibility of love. IT'S SO OVERWHELMING!!

He possesses so many great qualities.

I was on YBF and ran across this video...it reminded of some of the things he's said and how he makes me feel...So BeAuTiFuL :)

I'll be back with all of the details later....

Uhhhh, you sir are lame as hell!!

I don't know why, but I sometimes run into the weirdest, most moronic guys of all time. When I first moved back to Orlando a few months ago, I ran into a guy I went to high school with. We exchanged numbers, kool.

Back in high school, this dude was a year ahead of me. He was quite popular and the ladies loved him. He has light eyes, so you know the chicks were all over him always.

So after we exchange numbers, he calls and we talk for a little bit. He's all, "yea, I just moved into my own place" and he was so proud. In my head I'm thinking, "you're JUST now living on your own?!" The more we talked, the more I realized how lame he had become. He didn't seem to be going anywhere fast and I have no tolerance for dudes with no goals or ambitions. After talking on the phone a few times, I stopped answering his calls and his texts. You think that stopped him from continuing to call and text? HELL NAW! I can't understand why he didn't get the picture.

I just upgraded from my Sidekick to a Behold and forgot to save my numbers to my SIM card. And guess who calls me last night and I picked up? Yep, you guessed it :).

I pick up and our conversation goes a little something like...this:

LAD= Lame @ss dude

LAD: Hey, how ya been?
me: uhhhh, I'm good.
LAD: Why does it sound like you want to ask 'who is this'?
me: Cause I don't know who this is?
LAD: Aaaah, that's messed up! You erased my number outta your phone?
me: (Thinking, "no, I purposely saved your number before so I could ignore you). Instead I say, "no, I just got a new phone and haven't transferred my numbers"
LAD: Oh, ok. You know, uhhh, when are we gonna go see a movie or you can come to the house and we can rent a movie.
me: uhhhh, I...dont...know (I have a hard time being mean sometimes)
LAD: I can try to borrow my cousin's car to come scoop you.
me: (WTF?!) silence
LAD: We can do that this Sunday...oh, wait...I can't this Sunday, I'm gonna have my kids.
me: You have kids?!
LAD: Oh, I didn't tell you that?
me: uhhhh, no (insert screw face)...well how many do u have?
LAD: Three
me: (thinking, "three?!") oh
(and the youngest is about to be 5 months old, WTFFFFF?)


Then he goes off on this whole tangent about how females say they want a relationship, but they won't date him seriously cause he has a sh*tload of kids and doesn't have a car. Ummm, ya think? What else do you have to offer? Besides your overly fertile seed?

LAD: If we start talking, you'll see that I don't have any baby mama drama or anything like that.
me: WTF?

I don't what I did to give this dude the impression that I would be remotely interested in talking to him, but he's an idiot!

Here's the kicker:

LAD: If you can't come on Sunday, I get off work on Saturday around 10 or 11 and my boss usually takes me home. I could have him stop by to pick you up.

I think I died and went to comedy heaven after that statement. Did this ninja just say he was gonna have his boss come pick me up?! HOW LAME ARE YOU?? His @ss should be embarrassed to even consider saying something like that.

Needless to say, I politely ended the conversation. I told him that under no certain terms would I being going to his house for the first time at booty call hours, my exact words were "It ain't going down"

Can somebody please tell me what the hell is up with these dudes?

I entertained my girls with this story all day, LOL.

My prayer: Lawd, please don't allow me to meet anymore lames....I might have to cross over to the girl on girl side! NOT! lol :)

WE'RE GOING TO THE 'SHIP!!!!!

As you can tell from my Gator head at the top of my page, I am a Gator Alum.

I love being a Gator!

I'm going to be in South Beach to partay!!! AND to cheer on my school, of course :).

Feels good to be in the BCS title game for the second time in 3 years.

If ya ain't a Gator...you're Gator bait!!

GOOOOOOO GATORS!!!

I ain't Haitian!!

I'm on the phone with my sister the other night and somehow we get to talking about my bummy @$$ brother (more on that later), which in turn gets us to talking about my 2 nieces (his daughters).

'Lil History: So Haitian guy meets white woman with FIVE kids from previous man (who's now in jail) and has 2 more little girls.

That's was the short version. I'm blogging from my sidekick, so I'm being lazy.

So anywho, my sister is telling me about my older niece who doesn't like to be called Haitian. She throws a fit and cries whenever someone calls her Haitian. AND yells, "I'm not Haitian!!". Of course I'm thinking WTF?!

Apparently her older siblings, who are also half black, thinks its fun to make fun of her cuz along with her blackness she's Haitian.

To say I was baffled AND angry would be an understatement. I was ready to drive down where my brother lives and give my niece's older siblings a piece of my mind. I don't give a d@mn that they're kids. How do you torment your own sibling like that?

That conversation just took me back to the days when we (me and my Haitian friends) would get picked on simply because we were Haitian. Kindergariiden and 1st grade I used to let people get away with it. But after that I grew some balls and started backing mofos down and daring them to make fun of me.

I see I'm gonna have to go get my nieces for the holiday and teach them how to be proud of their culture. Besides stressing how important eduacation, my mother stressed to us the importance of being proud of who we were. Haitian people are strong, resilient and hard-working people. My niece's siblings should be so lucky to be a part of my culture! Hmph!

I hate ignorant people. I hope they don't turn out to be ignorant people! Maybe I need to cuss my brother's baby mama out for not correcting her kids. Yea, maybe that's what I'll do.

When it hurts so bad...

"I don't know why your heart doesn't do what your mind tells it". Brown Sugar

The truest words ever spoken in a movie.

It really sucks when you really care for someone and the feelings aren't reciprocated. I know that it's my fault, I knew what the situation was and I allowed myself to fall. I don't understand how I let this happen.

I hate that I overanalyze EVERYTHING! It makes it so hard to just move past things and people and get over it. So frustrating...

I don't know how many times I've watched this Madea clip and listened to this Lauryn Hill song tonight.

Alas, I guess I'll have to be sad for awhile. I hate being sad, it's so draining.

I AM SPEECHLESS!!!

Is Barack Hussein Obama really our president?

Wooooow! (Flavor Flav style)

There are no words.

YES WE CAN!!!!

YES WE DID!!!!!!

I VOTED!!!

Well I spent two hours in line waiting to vote and it was BEST two hours of my life!! lol, except for the standing part. I was prepared with my IPOD, my Black Enterprise with Barack on the cover AND my trusty SIDEKICK!! Can't leave home without it.



It was the most magical moment ever receiving my ballot. When I got to my booth, I couldn't help but stare at Barack's name. I was in awe. I am a part of history. I wish my mother could have lived long enough to see this moment...I wish Obama's grandmother could have lived long enough to see him become president. God truly works in mysterious ways.




On to the randomness...



So I was watching the Patriot/Colts game last night (my homie's team lost:/ )...Why doesn't Randy Moss let go of the braids?! Isn't he like 40? At what point should a grown man stop rockin' braids?

I also watched D.L Hughley Breaks the News. I must admit that I was sort of apprehensive about Reverend Al Sharpton appearing as his guest, because we all know he can say some pretty crazy things at times. But I think his segment was my favorite part of the whole show. (Stupid video wouldn't post to my blog, so here's the link)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5D5zPuberAU

I am ashamed that Soulja Boy is part of the Black race and if anyone thinks that's mean....I DON'T CARE! I was on YBF and ran across this story of Soulja Boy's recent interview on BET's Black Carpet:

…Then came Soulja Boy Tell Em. I asked him, “What historical figure do you most hate?” He was stumped. I said, “Others have said Hitler, bin Laden, the slave masters…” He said, “Oh wait! Hold up! Shout out to the slave masters! Without them we’d still be in Africa.”

My jaw, at this point, was on the ground.”We wouldn’t be here,” he continued, having no idea how far in it he’d stepped, “to get this ice and tattoos.”

Why oh WHY is the boy a miniature crackhead?! This is exactly why kids need to stay in school AND actually pay attention. What the hell would possess this boy to say such a thing and actually be serious? We are on the brink of electing a black president and this fool sets the race back a thousand years! UGH, there are truly no words for this atrocity. I often wonder why some folks just don't get it?

I'm the friend that's always screaming about social consciousness, education and the future of our kids. I know my friends get tired of my talking about it, but if I don't raise awareness, who will? I wondered why I didn't go on my rants on this blog, but I guess it's easier to run my mouth than try to write everything out.

Sometimes I feel like I'm speaking to brick walls. When will our people and my generation get it?

I'm watching Warren Sapp on Dancing With the Stars, he's bringing my blood pressure back down LOL. Did I mention that I love, love, love him? Lol, he's such a teddy bear! :)

My prayer: Lawd, please help my people to realize that we're standing on the shoulders of those that fought hard before us.

Putting my wall up once again...

Disclaimer: I wrote this about a week ago when I was actually still fuming, but I'm good now :). Ok, carry on!

Maaaaan, where do I even begin. You know how when you're heart gets broken, your heart literally hurts...physically. I'm at that point in my life, once again.

Although I've had my heart broken in the past, this heartbreak hurts particularly more than the others.
I gave so much of myself, that I literally lost myself. Doing sh!t I wouldn't normally do and looking past sh!t that I wouldn't normally overlook.

At 25, I feel like I should be better able to discern guy's motives...but maybe I'm not.

So I've decided to make the conscious effort to focus on myself and my goals and say eff these ningas.

Despite having my heart broken many times in the past, I always told myself that I wouldn't be a Bitter Betty. I always tried to keep my past issues in previous relationships in the past where they belonged. But what's the point? It just seems like these ningas are out for self anyway, so why shouldn't I be?

I consider myself to be a GREAT catch and damnmit I deserve someone who's going to recognize that. I always get the @ssholes that fcuk up constantly while we're together, but when I let their @ss loose all of a sudden it's "I've never had someone treat me the way you did", or "you treated me like a king when we were together" OR my personal favorite "I feel like you're the one"...OH REALLY?! You didn't realize that when we were together? Cuz once I tell you we're done and I strip you from my memory, fool you don't have a chance in hell at getting back with me.



So everyone knows that Jennifer Hudson is the truth despite the fact that she's engaged to Punk from I Love New York (that fool is sweeter than southern iced tea)....but I digress, d@mn this A.D.D.! So yea, Ms. Hudson has a song titled "Invisible" on her album...I think it's going to be my new anthem.

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And another thing, why do guys think it's OK to invite you to their house as soon as they meet you. How about a meal...in a PUBLIC place ninja!! Females are too lax on their morals these days. Fools think the simple fact that they holla at you is enough to earn them some @$$! Not in my world! We keeps it exclusive over here!!

Some insight on when this foolishness ends would be greatly appreciated. Jeebus have mercy!! Cuz I don't want to have to go to jail.

I'm gonna CUT someone!!

Currently I don't have a car. This was ok when I was in my little college town when everything was literally 15 minutes away. But now that I'm back in Orlando, getting from one place to the next is the most frustrating thing in life. It doesn't help that I can't seem to figure out how to catch the bus. There just seems to be so many of them, I have no idea which connects with what.

So as you know I just started working again. My job is down by Downtown Disney, which is about a good 25 minutes from my house (on a good day). In the morning I have no problem getting to work, I just ride with my stepmom. The afternoon is another story. If my stepmom is only working her 1st job and leaving @ 3pm, then I usually only have to wait an hour @ the most. If she has to go to her second job, then she usually has someone that she works with that's leaving @ 3 drop me off by the house and I walk the rest of the way.

Well today I was going to try to catch the bus home, but my cousin didn't bring my money by the house yesterday like she was supposed to. So I called her, because it was her fault I couldn't get home on my own anyway. This heifa starts telling me how she's been driving all day and how she didn't get a good night's sleep. WTH, bish I didn't ask you all that! I proceeded to tell her, "that's why I asked you to bring my money to the house since Saturday, so I could catch the bus for the week". I don't give a d@mn about your poor night of sleep and you driving everybody else around all day! She tells me she has to go by her house first then she'll come get me, so I'm like koo. This was @ 1pm.

2pm rolls around and I'm thinking "where is this chick?" I call that bish, and lo and behold her phone is turned off! WTFFFF?! At this point I'm fuming because I hate when people say they're going to do something and they don't. If you're word isn't good for sh!t, then you AIN'T sh!t! If someone asks you for a favor and you can't do it, just say so. So after calling that bish for another hour, she finally picks up her phone with the sleepy voice(fake @$$). She proceeds to tell me that when she got home she asked my brother to come get me with her car and he said no and she fell asleep! B!tch what? So your punk @$$ couldn't call to tell me that? I've been waiting for well over 2 hours!! I never understood inconsiderate @$$ people. I could've left with one of my stepmom's co-workers who left @ 1:45. So instead of cussing her b!tch @$$ out, I just hang up. Needless to say, I don't get home until d@mn near 5. UGH!

When I got home I was so mad that I had a pounding headache. And on top of that I was starving! So I took me some extra strength Tylenol, had me a bowl of Raisin Bran Crunch and turned my phone off and went to sleep. Subsequently missing the 1st hour of Dancing with the Stars, UGH (again)!

Tomorrow is a new day.

My prayer: Lawd please don't allow anyone to piss me off tomorrow, cuz I might go to jail!

I's employed now! :)

So its not my dream job (well, nowhere near), but you know what? I'll take it. These past two months have been the most frustrating two months of my life.

My best friend and I were on the phone the other night asking why did we even go to college? Why do I owe the gubment $27,000?! I think I deserve a refund, cuz I was sold a false dream! Lol. Why do I get turned down for jobs that don't even require a degree? WTH is that snit?!

So, for now I'm thanking God for his blessings and provisions and pushing full steam ahead. Its so hard to stay encouraged with this sucky @$$ job market! Alas, there's nothing I can do but place my trust in my capable Maker's hands.

No one's hotter than B!

Do you like how I said "B" as if I know Beyonce?! lol I am SO loving her two new singles right now...especially "Single Ladies". I think it's the video that I like so much, I need to learn those dance moves pronto for my future man! :)

Have you seen Her?

I was over at Funky Black Chick's spot and saw this story. I’m posting this information about Sankofa Queen’s missing sister! Michelle Orphalee McMullen has been missing since Sept. 28 from the Harrisburg, PA area. Now we all know that when our folks go missing, they don't get the media attention that they deserve. So help to spread the news, by reposting this on your spot. You can click on the picture if you need a larger view.

So So Ramdom...

I don't blog as much as I'd like and I blame it all on my A.D.D, lol. If I don't put my thoughts in writing while I'm thinking about, I might as well count it as a loss. This becomes really annoying after a while :/ So let the randomosity begin.

-In high school, I always considered the area that I lived in to be a good area. Now that I've moved back home, it seems that the criminals and the crime keep moving closer and closer to our area. Tuesday night two guys were shot to death literally 2 minutes from my subdivision. To me this is scary, I don't like not feeling safe. The door at my house is hardly every locked. Now I'm always checking the front door and the garage to make sure they're locked.

-The other day I was talking to one of my best friends on the phone and she was reading the O.J Simpson article to me. She stumbled over some word and I told her to spell it to me and I pronounced it. She's one of the smartest people I know, but she stays messing a word's pronunciation, LOL. She said along the lines of, "How do you always know all of these words?" This got me to thinking about my love for reading and how my mom used to take me to the library every two weeks to check out all the books my heart could handle. I was in elementary school reading thick science fiction books, I read well over my grade level. If I ran across a word I didn't know, I looked it up or I used context clues. It makes me wonder if parents do things like this for their kids anymore. My mother was from Haiti and she always stressed the importance of education because it's free here in the U.S.

-Why do young girls these days think they have to be overly sexual to get attention? I was at the phone store with my stepmom a week ago and as we're parking, I look over and these two teen aged girls are hunched low and popping hard as hell. And I'm looking on like WTF? Mind you, they were walking along a really busy intersection and I didn't hear any music. So why were these girl popping in the middle of the street for no apparent reason? WHO THE HELL KNOWS?! Foolishness, I tell you...simply foolishness.

-I have a real fear of running out of gas. Why? I don't know, but I do. So my brother asked me to drop him off at work on Friday, so that my other brother could have their car. My other brother was studying, so I'm like cool no problem. As we're driving, he says "Oh shoot, we're gonna run gas...oh wait, no we're not". By this time, I tell him to pull into the next gas station, this fool says "Nah, we're gonna make it to the cheap gas". Mind you, the "cheap gas" is like a good 8-10 minutes away. I continue to tell this fool to pull into a gas station, but does he listen? HELL NO! We passTHREE gas stations!! We get 2 minutes from the "cheap gas" and the car starts jerking and I'm pissed and cursing. The car stops right in the middle of a HUGE intersection, 2 minutes away from the "cheap gas"! Now I'm yelling all kinds of expletives cuz I'm beyond pissed and embarrassed. I tell my hard headed brother to get out and push, cuz I don't push cars lol <---not really though. Luckily this guy and his girlfriend stopped to take us to the gas station. Even though he almost killed us on the way there, I know God is gonna bless him for his good deed.

Oh, the madness...enough with the randomness. Until next time.

I think I have a crush on Warren Sapp? :)

I've been following Dancing with the Stars these past couple of years and have actually enjoyed it, but I never really had a favorite....until Warren Sapp. He just seems so fun and cuddly. I've never been one that was into heavyset men. My type is 6'4 and up and straight muscle! Mmmmmmmm(<---Homer voice) I'm drooling just thinking of my ideal man. But Warren, he just does something to me. Maybe it's his huge smile, who knows. I like him so much, I think I might actually vote this season. I'm a nerd, who cares :)!

Blogger Book Club

So, I was browsing some blogs and ran across a blogger book club! I am too excited. Curling up with a great book is one of my favorite pasttimes.

I'm not as hardcore as I used to be in high school (cuz u actually have to study in college, lol). But trust me when I tell you I have no problem jumping back into one of my favorite hobbies.

The book being read is "The Secret Life of Bees" by Sue Monk Kidd. The link for the blog is http://bloggersread.blogspot.com.

Happy reading book lovers! :)

My future hubby *sigh* :)

So I'm ready this book called Ain't No Mountain by Sharon Ewell Foster. In the book there is a character named Moor and he's a really spiritual guy. In the beginning of one of the chapters he's saying in prayer in anticipation of his future bride. It's so beautiful, I just kept saying "Awwww" throughout the whole prayer. I hope my future hubby prays such a prayer. Now, for your reading pleasure :)



"Give me grace to run this race alone, until you lead me to the doorway of the perfect wife, my heavenly Father. You and I have a good time talking and studying together, and I have a lot of work to do--so I'm not rushing you. You take your time. I know that you know the perfect woman for me. Today, though I do no know her, I pray that you will make her burdens light. I pray that you will give her peace and reassure her that you are sending her the mate that is perfect fit for her. Wipe the worry off of her forehead and relax her shoulders for me. Command her to enjoy the day. Rub her feet for me, until I am able to do so myself. Tell her that I am preparing myself to love her sacrificially and wholly as you have taught me to love. Tell her not to worry--I will be looking for her when the time is right. And in the right time and at the right place, I will find her. In Jesus' name. Amen."

*SIGH* My heart melts :). I am such a hopeless romantic and I hope to meet someone just as hopelessly romantic as I (but manly, lol).

Girl crush....

The other day I was thinking about a conversation I had with one of my mother's good friends when I was like 15. I don't remember where we were, but he made the comment along the lines of "Man, that guy has some big balls, or look at how big his balls are!" LMBO! I was mortified and I said, "Jean*, that's gay!" He looked at me and said, "That's not gay, it's Americans that think everything is gay. I can make a comment about another man without being attracted to him." It got me to thinking. We as Americans are some of the biggest homophobes there are.

Looking back on this conversation, I guess that's why I never had a problem saying a girl was pretty or had a nice shape. It doesn't take anything away from me, nor am I attracted to girls. I can just appreciate the female form, especially black women.

So in keeping with my appreciation of the female body, I decided to create my ideal body taking bits and pieces from different bodies that I like.

These would be my ideal legs....this is when Beyonce was really thick, lol

Do you see this ridiculously flat stomach? It just doesn't make any sense.....

Ciara is running a close second in the case of fab abs.

And Janet makes the list again with the fab boobs, although they might be fake (IDK or care)

Look at that a$$, that a$$, that a$$...sounds like something one of my homeboys would say, LOL :). I can definitely appreciate a nice pair of buns.



Why is she 42 and looks like this?! It's just not fair! Stacy Dash comes in 1.5 place (not 2nd) when it comes to the buns. I hope to look like her when I'm 42


*Names have been changed to protect the innocent :)

McCain thinks the American people have "Boo Boo the Fool" stamped on our Forehead

I was sent an email with a link of several interviews and press statements that John McCain has done. This man has literally contradicted himself in every television appearance that he's made. I knew this man was a liar when he started talking about "change" at the RNC. Change? Really McCain? When this man has clearly stated that he has no plans of withdrawing our troops out of Iraq and no plans of weening our country off of this oil. He's made it clear that he sees no problems with Bush's policies and all of sudden he's trying to distance himself from Bush at the RNC? I call BULLSH!T!! I'm convinced this man is the anti-christ, LOL.

Well here's the video, judge for yourselves:

Ask not what your community can do for you...ask what you can do for your community.

Yesterday I was talking to my brother about my job search, well really complaining. I've been working since I was 16, I don't know how to be unemployed. Guess that means I wasn't meant to be a stay at home mom, LOL. What's really freaking me out is not being able to provide for myself or being able to purchase something if I really wanted to.

Although I do have the chance to employ a sugar daddy, the thought of depending on a man makes me want to dry heave. Plus the thought of using someone simply for financial reasons goes against everything I know. Growing up my mother always taught my sisters and I that we shouldn't take money from men. My uncles weren't even allowed to give us money....they had to give her the cash and she would give it to us. Strange I KNOW, but it stuck with me. That's why I can't for the life of me understand why females throw themselves at a man simply because he has money :/ *shudders*, but that's a whole other post in itself.

Oh yea, so my brother and I are talking and in the midst of my complaining he asks, "What happened to you wanting to start your non profit organization?". I pause, and say "Yea, that's still the plan". And he asks, "well, when do you plan on starting it?". I paused yet again and it got me to thinking. I'm sitting here waiting on someone else to GIVE me a job, when I can get to working on starting my own organization. It had to be God himself talking.

I'm such a planner, the stars have to be aligned perfectly for me to do anything. My plan was to work for a year, do a bit a of volunteering, take the GRE and apply for grad school for next fall. But that's MY plan, what are God's plans? I feel him pushing me to step out on faith, but I just don't know where to even begin. And I'm kinda scared...well A LOT scared. I wonder if I'm going to be successful. I wonder if I can really make an impact on my community. I wonder if I can a positive role model for young ladies in my community. (I'm starting to sound like Carrie Bradshaw, LOL) Seriously though, I want to help encourage young girls, especially young black girls. I feel like a lot of them are missing the love, attention and encouragement that they so desperately need. I don't claim to know the cure, but with God's guidance, help and strength I know I can work miracles.

That talk with my brother helped to realize that I should stop talking about it and seriously be about it. I've never considered myself lazy, but when it comes to this topic I guess I was being a LITTLE lazy and apprehensive. God willing, by this time next year maybe you guys (all 3 of you, lol) will be reading about my non profit organization.

So if anyone who reads this has any advice, it will be welcomed warmly :)

Michelle Obama is the shiznit! :)

Michelle Obama is the epitome of a great woman(not just great BLACK woman). I love how genuine she seems to be. And I also love how well the Obama family seems to mesh. Their love is so genuine and I know the world can see it. If you didn't get to see the speech last night, it's your lucky day! :-)

Thanks Eb the Celeb...

I titled this entry Thanks to Eb because, she commented on one of my entries and reminded me that I haven't blogged in a while.

In the past month I've moved back home from the city where I went to college. I moved back into my parent's house to save and money and live rent free for a little while. In exchange for that free rent, I've given up the serenity that comes with living alone. Ugh, I didn't realize how much I enjoyed living alone until I got here. I have three brothers at home and that itself is nerve-wracking.

Issue #1 that drives me crazy! Those fools don't go to sleep until about 3 in the morning, and they think everyone stays up late that too. I'm used to going to sleep no later than midnight and being up by at least 8. Now I don't get up until 11 or 12. This whole arrangement is totally messing up my sleep schedule. I'm gonna have hell to pay when I get a job and have to get up early every morning.

Issue #2 that drives me crazy!! My stepmom gets up early in the morning running her mouth about my brother's leaving stuff lying around and she seems to do laundry EVERY morning and the laundry room is right next to my room. Mind you she leaves for work at 6:30!!

Issue #3 that drives me crazy!!! I don't know if my family missed me something crazy (I was gone 6 years). But everyone seems to call me for everything. I feel like I have 4 kids. My brother's are constantly calling my name when I'm home, which drives me CRAZY! I feel like my name should be "mom" instead of "Mimi". The other day my brother yelled from his room, "Mimi, what time is it?" Are you serious?! I had to ask that fool if he couldn't get off his arse and look for himself!! Lawdhavemercy! My stepmom is always calling me to gripe about her day, ask my opinion on something or askin me to do something for her.

I have to get out soon, or I'm going to have to be admitted to a mental institution!! LOL. There's is nothing like having your own space. I think not having a job is also magnifying my stress.

I'm praying that God blesses me with a job REALLY soon. I called my bishop last week and had him pray with me, so I know everything will be alright. There is no recession or fickle job market where God is concerned! It felt good to say that :).

I'm OUT!

To club or not to club....that is the question.....

I went out with a couple of my besties this past weekend. Sooo yea, I think I'm gonna give up on going out...at least for a little while.



First of all, we were waiting outside of the club for our other friend for like 15-20 minutes. Second, it looked like a club made especially for weirdos. I hate going to lame a$$ clubs. Luckily her boyfriend was getting us in free, and I don't usually turn down free....unless its that bad. So we get into the club and I'm having a good time with my girls in VIP. I look over and there's a girl getting down on the dance floor with NO shoes on! I was so disgusted. I couldn't believe this dirty foot would actually take her shoes off in the club. WTH?!


My friend's boyfriend's homeboy(<---lol) was trying to talk to me so we exchanged numbers and exchanged a few words. I noticed this dude giving me a weird look and I say "what?". He goes on to ask me if that was my real hair and I say yes. I guess that was the hook, line and sinker (or however that saying goes). The whole night he just kept saying "You have real hair", "I can't believe you have real hair". So I'm thinking chicks must only wear weaves these days, because this dude was too amazed LOL.

Oh, and I saw kids damn near having sex on the dance floor. This little girl (and I say little, because she had a side ponytail and it was poofy WTH?) had her guy friend sprawled out on the floor(yes, the dance floor) and they were "dancing". It looked more like she was riding him, but whatever. Ugh, these kids. They kill me! lol. I hope to only have sons, cuz if my daughters even think to commit such atrocities I will lock them away in a cave and throw away the key. Child Protective services be damned! lol

My friend who rode with me got a call from one of her ex-boyfriends who was outside of the club and she ends up going to get something to eat with him. She texted me to say that she would be back b4 the club closes, which was fine with me. Well, club closes and there's no sign of my homegirl. My other friend was with her boyfriend and his friend and their agent and their car was in the opposite direction of mine. So I told them I would be cool and proceeded to walk to my car. On the way to the car, I noticed this car full of guys to my left. I made sure not to make eye contact, cuz I didn't need any weirdos trying to talk to me. As I'm passing the car, I heard the usual "hey hey hey" or "hey girl, let me talk to ya"....but of course I kept walking. Then I hear this girl (I'm guessing she was in the back seat), "She has a nice a**!....She has a nice a**!". She must've said this like 5 times and loudly. I'm thinking, "Oh Lord"....not only do I have the crazy dudes trying to holla, now I have some crazy girl yelling mess at me too. I practically ran the rest of the way to my car, but not before being holla'd at like 10 more times. I have never been more happy to get in a car than I was that night.

BaBy ThUgS?!?!?!

What is with these young boys these days thinking it's cute to act like a thug? Last nite I got a friend request on Myspace from a shirtless 17 year old boy. I'm looking at the picture like, "who is this kid and why is he trying to be my friend?". I tried to look at his profile, but it was set to private. I don't approve anyone on myspace unless I know you, because they're are too many wackos out there. Anywho, he sent me a message asking if I remembered him and I said "I'm sorry, but no". He goes on to explain that he's my youngest brother's friend. When he told me his name, I nearly fell out of my seat. He didn't look the same and he was just all thugged out. I sat there thinking that "this is not the same little boy my little brother used to have play dates with and I used to make them sandwiches". It's safe to say I was baffled. So I look through the pictures and he has pictures of him with stacks of money and pictures of his homeboy with a gun (don't know what kind it was).

My concern is, why do these boys feel like they have to act this way? My brother is the same way. He wears his pants at his knees. Half the time I can't even understand him, cuz it doesn't sound like he's speaking English. The mess they're speaking these days isn't even Ebonics, I really don't know what it is. I'm always telling him to stop cursing, b/c every other word is a curse word and I don't play that. I mean I curse occasionally, but dang EVERY OTHER WORD just doesn't make any sense.

I feel like our youth are in a crisis situation and it's the responsibility of my peers(the ones that have good sense) to help enlighten them. A lot of them don't really know who they are as individuals, therefore they don't know who to be. So they emulate what they see on tv or in the streets. It really makes me sad. Most of their parents can't reach them because they feel like their parents don't understand. But if the 25+ age bracket could volunteer to mentor at least one lost teenager, the world would be a much better place.

Giiiiiiirl!! That's my song!

I'm so feeling this song right now....it's so refreshing to have a new face on the music scene that's worth listening to.

Chi-Town Lovin'

Just got back in to town from my trip to Chicago. I went to visit one of my bestest friends from high school and I went to explore the Taste of Chicago festival.

So if you're a food junkie like me and my bestie, you would have been in food HEAVEN!! LOL. I ate to the point of exhaustion. Fried mustard catfish, barbeque sandwiches, some kind of blue cheese and mustard steak burger (OMG!), oreo cheesecake with vanilla ice cream (yummmmm) and the list goes on and on. My exterior may not show it, but I love to eat. I may be a big girl trapped in a skinny girl's body! lol

I don't think I have the best traveling luck. I seemed to be getting the most obnoxious people sitting next to me on the plane. On the way to Chicago, I sat next to this lady and her toddler grandson. Her grandson would not sit still for nothing and his little butt just kept making noise. Mind you, it was a 7am flight and I hadn't gotten any sleep in over 24 hours! So you know I was mad as hell! On my plane ride back home, I got this old nasty man that just kept passing gas!! Like WTH!!! I kept giving him dirty looks, but he just wouldn't stop. Ugh!

Chicago was really kool man, especially the city....wasn't feeling the 'burbs too much. My bestie is on a mission to get me to move to the Chi, but I'm hesistant. I'm not the type to just pick up and leave. I like to let things marinate! I am in no way impulsive. I think this is God's way of saying, "Just step out on faith". I really have a hard time doing that. My lease is about to end at the end of July, so I might just say "what the heck" (so unlike me)

The night life was kool. Went to this club called Transit, definitely a nice spot. Next night went to Boutique, that was kool too. Despite seeing the some of the most tired females I've ever seen in my life, the club scene was kool. I think some chicks leave their house thinking, "Man, I'm gonna kill them with this outfit!!"....maybe genuinely not realizing that they look a hot doggone mess! I've come to the conclusion that those people do not have real friends. If I wouldn't wear something out, then I couldn't let my friend it out...and I will let them know that, even if it hurts a little.

Chicago drivers may be some of the craziest drivers I've seen. I think I'm pretty comfortable when it comes to driving on the highway, but from what I saw on the E-way in Chicago I would never drive there. I love my life and I sure do not want to die at the tender age of 25. In Chicago it is illegal to make a U-turn anywhere, but you're allowed to go over the median to get where you're going. WTH!! If that's not some of the most backwards stuff I ever heard in my life, I don't know what is. You're more likely to hit someone trying to cross over a median than you are making a perfectly safe U-turn. And the more I think about, going over a median is the same as making a U-turn only you're taking the risk of possibly messing up your car to make that U-turn. Chicago just seems to have to many driving rules, but I guess you need them with the way people drive up there. We take it easy down here in the south :).

More on my trip, when I think of more....

Get it together black MEN!

I was reading in my local newspaper that one of the guys from my alma mater (GOOO GATORS!!) is leaving to go to the pros (NBA). I was kind of baffled, because I personally didn't think he played all that great when he played for us. Apparently he and whoever else is advising him thinks he's good enough to play in the NBA. His freshman year, he was basically a non-factor because we had Joakim Noah, Al Horford and Corey Brewer. And this year he had spurts of good games, but for the most part he just proved that he couldn't lead a team, because he was so inconsistent.

My question is, at what point do these athletes take advantage of the high quality education that is basically handed to them on a silver platter? I was once told by one of my friends who played football "I wouldn't be in college if I didn't play football" and sure enough, he left without completing his degree. I worked my butt off for my degree and I have thousands of dollars in student loans to show for it.

I understand that some of these athletes come from low-income areas and the thought of millions of dollars is oh-so-tantalizing, but they have got to see the big picture. First off, the chance to play in the pros is offered to a select few and even if you make it, your chance of incurring a season-ending injury increases with each game that you play. A career in the pros can be taken at any moment, but your degree is something that is yours forever.

Our young black men are gonna continue to be raped for their talents as long as they let it be known that they don't give a damn about their education. Alas, it's like talking to brick walls sometimes :/.

I MUST be getting OLD....

I just wasted 5:11 minutes of my life, watching Bow Wow go on and on about Haters (well, I didn't watch, I let the video play while I did some work). Still that was a complete waste of my ear space, LOL. I could have directed my attention to someone's conversation in the cubicle next to me :-). This young man obviously doesn't have anything better to do with his time. And what irked me even more was the fact that he was so repetitive, he just kept asking, "What makes a hater hate". Who in the world cares, if you had something better to occupy your time, you wouldn't have time to read the blogs and see what people probably aren't even saying about you :/. *sigh* These kids kill me.

And I won't even get started on the song called "Hi hater" or whatever it's called OR "Haterz everywhere we go"....LMBO, what has music come to?!?! Uh, this world is a mess these days. I'm afraid to even have kids, simply because they have people like Soulja Boy to look at as an example (Ya trick Ya?!, OMG!) Who actually pays for studio time for this miniature crackhead to record music?! *sigh* again, I think I'm done ranting. I feel better now, LOL.

Weekend Flava!

This weekend I got to see my little sissy :-) graduate! I am so proud of her! She has been through so much, even at the tender age of 17 (she'll be 18 in a couple of weeks, can't believe it).

I went down to the town where I grew and saw so many people that I hadn't seen in at least the 9 years since my mom's death. It got to see one of my adorable nieces, the other was with the other side of her family. I love her! It was so good to be back with my family and kind of strange being in the small town that I grew up in. I don't miss the everyone knows everyone and knows all of your business. I met so many people that remembered my mom and remembered me from when I was a child.
Everyone spoke so highly of my mother and it made me SO proud. I hope to affect others the same way that she has affected so many others. I don't think I realized how great of a woman my mother was. We didn't grow up with much, but she always found a way to give to others. She was AMAZING! And oh how I miss her so!

If she could have lived longer, she could've done so many great things. Ah well, God does everything for a reason. Too bad she's not gonna get to see a black man become president!!

In other non-sad news, oh well it is sad too LOL. My Lakers fell again to the ridiculously cohesive group of Celtics. But we have 3 games at home and I'm looking forward to these games. This is our chance to get back in the series. I will continue to pray for my Lakers :). And for the record, KG is going out of his way to make my team look bad sometimes. I DO NOT APPROVE! And whenever I get the chance to met him, I will tell him so, LOL.

Rant of the DAY! : People should get tickets for riding 50mph in the fast lane on the highway! WTH is that! Get your behind out of the way. I swear I'm gonna get an SUV made specifically to ram people like that, LOL! Ok, I'm done :-)

So my Lakers lost :-(...

The Lakers relinquished the first game of the finals last night. I am really sad about it...but I can't even front on the Celtics, they did the darn thing. Especially KG, that man is a beast...to quote my best friend :-). He couldn't seem to miss. And I feel bad for saying this, but I was kinda hoping Paul Pierce wouldn't be able to come back in the game after he sprained his ankle. *hangs head in shame* I KNOW :/.
Oh well, I still believe my Lakers can win this 'ship in 7.
I've been defending my team for a few years now and we deserve it. Especially Kobe, b/c no one thought he could get a ring without Shaq. He has improved leaps and bounds as a person and as a ball player. I wait for the day that I can laugh in all of the faces of the Laker Haters!
Although KG deserves a ring, he just doesn't deserve this one :-). Maybe next year homie.

JuSt StArTiNg OuT!!!

I never thought I would be one to have a blog...but here I am. I hope this venture helps me to discover a different side of myself. It's kind of scary knowing that there are others who will be able to read my personal thoughts, but I'm willing to put myself out there (just a little ;-), LOL)