Friday, October 31, 2008


Well I spent two hours in line waiting to vote and it was BEST two hours of my life!! lol, except for the standing part. I was prepared with my IPOD, my Black Enterprise with Barack on the cover AND my trusty SIDEKICK!! Can't leave home without it.

It was the most magical moment ever receiving my ballot. When I got to my booth, I couldn't help but stare at Barack's name. I was in awe. I am a part of history. I wish my mother could have lived long enough to see this moment...I wish Obama's grandmother could have lived long enough to see him become president. God truly works in mysterious ways.

On to the randomness...

So I was watching the Patriot/Colts game last night (my homie's team lost:/ )...Why doesn't Randy Moss let go of the braids?! Isn't he like 40? At what point should a grown man stop rockin' braids?

I also watched D.L Hughley Breaks the News. I must admit that I was sort of apprehensive about Reverend Al Sharpton appearing as his guest, because we all know he can say some pretty crazy things at times. But I think his segment was my favorite part of the whole show. (Stupid video wouldn't post to my blog, so here's the link)

I am ashamed that Soulja Boy is part of the Black race and if anyone thinks that's mean....I DON'T CARE! I was on YBF and ran across this story of Soulja Boy's recent interview on BET's Black Carpet:

…Then came Soulja Boy Tell Em. I asked him, “What historical figure do you most hate?” He was stumped. I said, “Others have said Hitler, bin Laden, the slave masters…” He said, “Oh wait! Hold up! Shout out to the slave masters! Without them we’d still be in Africa.”

My jaw, at this point, was on the ground.”We wouldn’t be here,” he continued, having no idea how far in it he’d stepped, “to get this ice and tattoos.”

Why oh WHY is the boy a miniature crackhead?! This is exactly why kids need to stay in school AND actually pay attention. What the hell would possess this boy to say such a thing and actually be serious? We are on the brink of electing a black president and this fool sets the race back a thousand years! UGH, there are truly no words for this atrocity. I often wonder why some folks just don't get it?

I'm the friend that's always screaming about social consciousness, education and the future of our kids. I know my friends get tired of my talking about it, but if I don't raise awareness, who will? I wondered why I didn't go on my rants on this blog, but I guess it's easier to run my mouth than try to write everything out.

Sometimes I feel like I'm speaking to brick walls. When will our people and my generation get it?

I'm watching Warren Sapp on Dancing With the Stars, he's bringing my blood pressure back down LOL. Did I mention that I love, love, love him? Lol, he's such a teddy bear! :)

My prayer: Lawd, please help my people to realize that we're standing on the shoulders of those that fought hard before us.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Putting my wall up once again...

Disclaimer: I wrote this about a week ago when I was actually still fuming, but I'm good now :). Ok, carry on!

Maaaaan, where do I even begin. You know how when you're heart gets broken, your heart literally hurts...physically. I'm at that point in my life, once again.

Although I've had my heart broken in the past, this heartbreak hurts particularly more than the others.
I gave so much of myself, that I literally lost myself. Doing sh!t I wouldn't normally do and looking past sh!t that I wouldn't normally overlook.

At 25, I feel like I should be better able to discern guy's motives...but maybe I'm not.

So I've decided to make the conscious effort to focus on myself and my goals and say eff these ningas.

Despite having my heart broken many times in the past, I always told myself that I wouldn't be a Bitter Betty. I always tried to keep my past issues in previous relationships in the past where they belonged. But what's the point? It just seems like these ningas are out for self anyway, so why shouldn't I be?

I consider myself to be a GREAT catch and damnmit I deserve someone who's going to recognize that. I always get the @ssholes that fcuk up constantly while we're together, but when I let their @ss loose all of a sudden it's "I've never had someone treat me the way you did", or "you treated me like a king when we were together" OR my personal favorite "I feel like you're the one"...OH REALLY?! You didn't realize that when we were together? Cuz once I tell you we're done and I strip you from my memory, fool you don't have a chance in hell at getting back with me.

So everyone knows that Jennifer Hudson is the truth despite the fact that she's engaged to Punk from I Love New York (that fool is sweeter than southern iced tea)....but I digress, d@mn this A.D.D.! So yea, Ms. Hudson has a song titled "Invisible" on her album...I think it's going to be my new anthem.


And another thing, why do guys think it's OK to invite you to their house as soon as they meet you. How about a a PUBLIC place ninja!! Females are too lax on their morals these days. Fools think the simple fact that they holla at you is enough to earn them some @$$! Not in my world! We keeps it exclusive over here!!

Some insight on when this foolishness ends would be greatly appreciated. Jeebus have mercy!! Cuz I don't want to have to go to jail.

Monday, October 27, 2008

I'm gonna CUT someone!!

Currently I don't have a car. This was ok when I was in my little college town when everything was literally 15 minutes away. But now that I'm back in Orlando, getting from one place to the next is the most frustrating thing in life. It doesn't help that I can't seem to figure out how to catch the bus. There just seems to be so many of them, I have no idea which connects with what.

So as you know I just started working again. My job is down by Downtown Disney, which is about a good 25 minutes from my house (on a good day). In the morning I have no problem getting to work, I just ride with my stepmom. The afternoon is another story. If my stepmom is only working her 1st job and leaving @ 3pm, then I usually only have to wait an hour @ the most. If she has to go to her second job, then she usually has someone that she works with that's leaving @ 3 drop me off by the house and I walk the rest of the way.

Well today I was going to try to catch the bus home, but my cousin didn't bring my money by the house yesterday like she was supposed to. So I called her, because it was her fault I couldn't get home on my own anyway. This heifa starts telling me how she's been driving all day and how she didn't get a good night's sleep. WTH, bish I didn't ask you all that! I proceeded to tell her, "that's why I asked you to bring my money to the house since Saturday, so I could catch the bus for the week". I don't give a d@mn about your poor night of sleep and you driving everybody else around all day! She tells me she has to go by her house first then she'll come get me, so I'm like koo. This was @ 1pm.

2pm rolls around and I'm thinking "where is this chick?" I call that bish, and lo and behold her phone is turned off! WTFFFF?! At this point I'm fuming because I hate when people say they're going to do something and they don't. If you're word isn't good for sh!t, then you AIN'T sh!t! If someone asks you for a favor and you can't do it, just say so. So after calling that bish for another hour, she finally picks up her phone with the sleepy voice(fake @$$). She proceeds to tell me that when she got home she asked my brother to come get me with her car and he said no and she fell asleep! B!tch what? So your punk @$$ couldn't call to tell me that? I've been waiting for well over 2 hours!! I never understood inconsiderate @$$ people. I could've left with one of my stepmom's co-workers who left @ 1:45. So instead of cussing her b!tch @$$ out, I just hang up. Needless to say, I don't get home until d@mn near 5. UGH!

When I got home I was so mad that I had a pounding headache. And on top of that I was starving! So I took me some extra strength Tylenol, had me a bowl of Raisin Bran Crunch and turned my phone off and went to sleep. Subsequently missing the 1st hour of Dancing with the Stars, UGH (again)!

Tomorrow is a new day.

My prayer: Lawd please don't allow anyone to piss me off tomorrow, cuz I might go to jail!

Monday, October 20, 2008

I's employed now! :)

So its not my dream job (well, nowhere near), but you know what? I'll take it. These past two months have been the most frustrating two months of my life.

My best friend and I were on the phone the other night asking why did we even go to college? Why do I owe the gubment $27,000?! I think I deserve a refund, cuz I was sold a false dream! Lol. Why do I get turned down for jobs that don't even require a degree? WTH is that snit?!

So, for now I'm thanking God for his blessings and provisions and pushing full steam ahead. Its so hard to stay encouraged with this sucky @$$ job market! Alas, there's nothing I can do but place my trust in my capable Maker's hands.

Monday, October 13, 2008

No one's hotter than B!

Do you like how I said "B" as if I know Beyonce?! lol I am SO loving her two new singles right now...especially "Single Ladies". I think it's the video that I like so much, I need to learn those dance moves pronto for my future man! :)

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Have you seen Her?

I was over at Funky Black Chick's spot and saw this story. I’m posting this information about Sankofa Queen’s missing sister! Michelle Orphalee McMullen has been missing since Sept. 28 from the Harrisburg, PA area. Now we all know that when our folks go missing, they don't get the media attention that they deserve. So help to spread the news, by reposting this on your spot. You can click on the picture if you need a larger view.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

So So Ramdom...

I don't blog as much as I'd like and I blame it all on my A.D.D, lol. If I don't put my thoughts in writing while I'm thinking about, I might as well count it as a loss. This becomes really annoying after a while :/ So let the randomosity begin.

-In high school, I always considered the area that I lived in to be a good area. Now that I've moved back home, it seems that the criminals and the crime keep moving closer and closer to our area. Tuesday night two guys were shot to death literally 2 minutes from my subdivision. To me this is scary, I don't like not feeling safe. The door at my house is hardly every locked. Now I'm always checking the front door and the garage to make sure they're locked.

-The other day I was talking to one of my best friends on the phone and she was reading the O.J Simpson article to me. She stumbled over some word and I told her to spell it to me and I pronounced it. She's one of the smartest people I know, but she stays messing a word's pronunciation, LOL. She said along the lines of, "How do you always know all of these words?" This got me to thinking about my love for reading and how my mom used to take me to the library every two weeks to check out all the books my heart could handle. I was in elementary school reading thick science fiction books, I read well over my grade level. If I ran across a word I didn't know, I looked it up or I used context clues. It makes me wonder if parents do things like this for their kids anymore. My mother was from Haiti and she always stressed the importance of education because it's free here in the U.S.

-Why do young girls these days think they have to be overly sexual to get attention? I was at the phone store with my stepmom a week ago and as we're parking, I look over and these two teen aged girls are hunched low and popping hard as hell. And I'm looking on like WTF? Mind you, they were walking along a really busy intersection and I didn't hear any music. So why were these girl popping in the middle of the street for no apparent reason? WHO THE HELL KNOWS?! Foolishness, I tell you...simply foolishness.

-I have a real fear of running out of gas. Why? I don't know, but I do. So my brother asked me to drop him off at work on Friday, so that my other brother could have their car. My other brother was studying, so I'm like cool no problem. As we're driving, he says "Oh shoot, we're gonna run gas...oh wait, no we're not". By this time, I tell him to pull into the next gas station, this fool says "Nah, we're gonna make it to the cheap gas". Mind you, the "cheap gas" is like a good 8-10 minutes away. I continue to tell this fool to pull into a gas station, but does he listen? HELL NO! We passTHREE gas stations!! We get 2 minutes from the "cheap gas" and the car starts jerking and I'm pissed and cursing. The car stops right in the middle of a HUGE intersection, 2 minutes away from the "cheap gas"! Now I'm yelling all kinds of expletives cuz I'm beyond pissed and embarrassed. I tell my hard headed brother to get out and push, cuz I don't push cars lol <---not really though. Luckily this guy and his girlfriend stopped to take us to the gas station. Even though he almost killed us on the way there, I know God is gonna bless him for his good deed.
Oh, the madness...enough with the randomness. Until next time.

Monday, October 6, 2008

I think I have a crush on Warren Sapp? :)

I've been following Dancing with the Stars these past couple of years and have actually enjoyed it, but I never really had a favorite....until Warren Sapp. He just seems so fun and cuddly. I've never been one that was into heavyset men. My type is 6'4 and up and straight muscle! Mmmmmmmm(<---Homer voice) I'm drooling just thinking of my ideal man. But Warren, he just does something to me. Maybe it's his huge smile, who knows. I like him so much, I think I might actually vote this season. I'm a nerd, who cares :)!